Confessions of a Pronator

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Confession time:
I pronate.
Always have.
And probably always will.
At least until I get my new feet in heaven one day.
Then everything will be properly aligned.

Now, if you are not a runner or a physical therapist, you may not know what it means to pronate.
Basically, it means that my feet are out of alignment with the rest of my body.
I don’t rest my weight on my feet correctly; I allow them to roll inward instead of squaring my heels to the floor.
And because I do that, I have problems with my arches, knees, hips and back. All because I am out of alignment.

It’s incredibly common.
My podiatrist says it is the “most common birth defect”.
According to him, most of us pronate because our feet are rolled inward in the womb and when we are born they are supposed to straighten out. But many don’t completely straighten as they should and thus the epidemic of pronation.
According to my podiatrist.
And because my feet are out of alignment, everything else is, too.

Confession:
I spiritually pronate.
Always have.
Always will (no “probably” about it!)
At least until I get my new me in heaven one day.
Then I know I will always be properly aligned.

Because I was born with the most common, completely-inescapable birth defect: sin.
According to The Great Physician, it is the one birth defect we can all claim.
“For ALL have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)

And because I was born with this defect, I am out of alignment.
I roll inwards instead of outwards.
I love myself more than I love anyone else.
I am selfish.
Unkind.
Unloving.
Self-righteous.
Prideful.
Unforgiving.
Etc.

I am out of alignment in my thinking and in my ways.
And I cannot trust myself to ever be in alignment by my own devices.
God said through the prophet Jeremiah that the human heart – MY heart – is “…the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?”
Cannot follow my heart.
It will most certainly lead me astray.
There are moments where I can muster up something resembling goodness by my own devices.
But those moments are always full of mixed motives at best.
The prophet Isaiah said that my own good deeds are like filthy rags compared to the righteousness that God desires. (Isaiah 64)

I am out of alignment.
And it causes pain throughout the Body.
When I do not align my feet properly, I feel in it my arches, knees, hips and back.

And when I do not align my life with God’s Word, I feel it all over.

When I pick and choose what the Bible says – or rather, what I want it to say – by taking verses out of context, I am out of alignment.
When I know what the Bible plainly says – like “Put on your new nature, and be renewed as you learn to know your Creator and become like him. In this new life, it doesn’t matter if you are a Jew or a Gentile, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbaric, uncivilized, slave, or free. Christ is all that matters, and he lives in all of us. Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience” (Colossians 3) – but choose to live like I am the only one who actually matters, I am out of alignment.
When I don’t really read or study my Bible for myself but instead live on the words of humans without checking them against the Truth of scripture, I am out of alignment.
When I make exceptions about what God says – when I say, “Well, I know He says to forgive them but He just doesn’t understand how I feel” – then I am out of alignment.
And being out of alignment causes pain.
Lack of joy.
Lack of hope.
Lack of love for others.
Disharmony instead of harmony.
Division instead of unity.

The great news for my feet is that I have tools that help me to get aligned. Great shoes and custom orthodics both put everything in place and take away the pain. Being aware of the problem and choosing to stand properly help as well.

And the great news for my heart is that I have the tools to help me get aligned. As a Christ-follower, I have the Holy Spirit inside of me, prompting and dissuading me as needed. I have the written Word of God to read, meditate on and study. And I am aware of the problem that my heart is not to be trusted so that I must choose to look at things God’s way, even if I do not like it.

One day my feet will not pronate.
And neither will my heart.
But until then, I will choose proper alignment.
Even though it takes work.
Because being properly aligned is worth it every time.

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